Listening to: Nightmares by the Sea- Katatonia

overexcitable...

Mood: i dont know

hello

i need to write some stuff...get it out of my system
but i do not know how


my emotions have been playing up recently...i cant decide how i feel, and im getting sad over nothing.
i keep making other people sad because i cant decide what i am...and that makes me sadder, its not nice to make other people unhappy.

ill be smiley and over excited one minute...then nothing will suddenly turn me all saddy.
theres nothing really wrong with me...and im probably being selfish thinking about myself, and making a big deal out of nothing. im sorry

i want to stop letting people down

i want to sleep, need to...but i dont seem to have any time...always seems to be too much to do, and to many people to make happy that i can never just get to sleep and relax. once i get to do that, maybe i can do a complete smile, for a longer time. i have to work tomorow, that makes me sad. i dont want to work at the weekend when i could be doing so much more and enjoying myself. i want to get out and see everyone, then still get to sleep

but i wont be able to do that. i will enjoy myself. but...it still doesnt make me feel right

i miss mark

very much. he was sad today, and since ive known him, i dont remember him ever being sad...i hope i didnt do anything wrong
i need to see him...but thats getting hard as i dont have any time.
i love him so much...you hear that markie??


i dont expect many of you will have read all of this...i wouldnt expect you to. sorry its so long
and in a way i dont need you to, just needed to get it out like i said.

but thankyou anyway

i love you all

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If i had chance to cut you, believe me you would bleed

Makes me happy

Mood: horny
Reading: The Batman Handbook

need to write a journal...has been a few months since the last...and what better a place to start than with my 1000 pageviews!!! WOOOOOO

Hi to aishah! "hi aishah"

Nothing interesting really to write about...but im in english...bored, nothing to do.

according to kathryn twas random acts of kindness week last week....but we missed it so this week can be our own little kind week, yay


WANT TO TYPE GOOD STUFF....BUT ALL I CAN THINK OF IS GAY!!!!!!!!!

maybe i should just leave it for now.....wanker

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If i had chance to cut you, believe me you would bleed

Mood: ...alone...but happy
Listening to: You Raise me up- Westlife....oh dear..
Reading: Fear Itself- Jonathan Nasaw

...well im not actually listening to it...but my mum has it on...

GREAT GREAT GREAT THANKS TO THE WONDERFUL SUPER PAUL FOR MY SHINY NEW SUPER LOVELY SUBSCRIPTION!!!!

a wonderful christmas present thankyou so much!!! you are a wonderful wonderful great person!!!



christmas was wonderful! im now alone and feeling tired...and not so great....but im content, had a lovely day

.................. i want to go too bed

you are beautiful paul

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If i had chance to cut you, believe me you would bleed

Mood: exhausted
Listening to: Atonement - Opeth

exams are over...hooray for that

art was a nightmare

in the past now


*sigh of relief*


not sure what to be writing in here again...but i realised it was about time for a new one. so

really want to do something amazing, to astonish everybody...and i keep getting ideas,but i dont seem to have the time, or skill to do this...if you could see in my head, you would know what a super great artist i am...


we made a poo the other day
me verity and kathryn

kt bought some chocolate frosting and we turned it into a little dog poo and placed it conveniantly in the path

watching as people walked past was such great fun, but then the birds flew off with it, and our game was over


yeh im really not in the mood for writing a journal...sorry to dissapoint aish...instead im just gonna put some nice song lyrics in its place yay


Hours Of Wealth-Opeth

Found a way to rid myself clean of pain
And the fever that's been haunting me
Has gone away

Looking through my window
I seem to recognize
All the people passing by
But I'm alone
And far from home
Nobody knows me

Never heard me say goodbye
Never shall I speak to anyone again
All days are in darkness
And abiding my time
Once I am sure of my task I will rise again...

wonderful

If i had chance to cut you, believe me you would bleed